hey my people! Sorry I'm such a lazy blogger......actually I like it but I think it's boring with no pics..........anyways, I've been asked to update....Ok, what am I doing........
Lately, just hanigng out with Shawn Pierce and teaching english........it's still really cold here but now it just rains instead of snows. Although there is still snow on the ground....unbelievable!!!! I don't think winter will EVER end!!!!!!!!! I can't wait for summer and flip-flops!! Seriously!! I miss warm weather and the sunshine.....I don't think the sun even exists anymore!!
Anyway, I miss my family abunch. I'm going crazy doing this whole Moldova life thing. It's so crazy how differently we think. Sometimes I get so depressed by the way people live over here. It drives me absolutely NUTS!!! I can't imagine how they are satisfied with thier way of life! I was thinking about this the other day but someone told me that they are happy with it and it works for them. Then I started thinking, I can't change that. I can't "Americanize" them or even explain what "life is all about" the way I know it to be which seems simple and obvious to us. They also can't understand the way we live. So, I've decided instead of letting it drag me down and not understanding, I'll just keep being ignorant and asking lots of questions and just walking around being me. I don't want to think about it aymore becuse it just confuses me and I get depresed and angry. I've also found out that your words don't mean anything here, but it's your actions. Moldovans have this way of watching your every move: the way you walk, what you eat, what you wear, the way you talk (not what you say but your tone and what you do with your eyes), the way you look around, the questions you ask. They are very suspicious of everyone as if you TRYING to hurt them. This is another thing I'll never understand but it's the way it is. So, I'm understanding more and more that the only way to reach out is to live life like Jesus. They'll come to you. You can't tell them something because they won't believe it. They watch you and your life. It's like what they've told us in youth group, you can't just say you are a christian, you have to live it. Almost everyone here will tell you they are christians and that there is a God because the religion here is orthadox an they've all been baptized. The Bible even says that the demons believe in God and tremble. Basically the only thing to do is to just go about your life and watch what you say and do. When you're walking down the street, when you drop your cell phone in the mud, when you find out you just got robbed (which happens pretty often here.) I know the people are watching me. They let me know it everyday. I've been told that I smile when I walk down the street. That's not a normal thing here. I just have to let Jesus be the one they see. I have to be very careful making promises, even small ones. Trust is a hard thing to earn here. EXTREMELY HARD!
This is mostly whatI've been learning here, about people. I was thinking the other day that I don't think I want to be a misionary anywhere else!!! No where long term anyway because I never want to go through this again!! I've already learned about Moldovans and it's the hardest thing. I don't want to learn another culture. I would die of stress...............I'm glad I've gone through it and still am but I never want to do it again.
Other than all that sad stuff, I'm having a pretty good time. I like to go to the internatt (orphanage) every now and then and see those guys. I LOVE talking to those kids!! It's AMAZING knowing the langauge!! I'm still learnig it but they help in a lot of ways......I'm learning a lot more russian too. That's fun!! Russian is the coolest sounding language EVER!! I like to speak romanian more because it's easier but knowing that I can understand and actually make the russian sounds and get what I want is pretty cool! It's so difficult but I like it alot!!
I guess that's about all........I do have to say that if I don't get some taco bell soon and a big cherry coke with sonic ice, someone will die! no, just kidding.....I would love to have that though...Do you know how long it's been since I had ice??? I don't even remember.......... I thinkI'm just blabbing now....and Shawn says it's 12:53...I gotta go.....SEE YA GUYS!!
Love from Moldova,
Christina